A New Month, a New Start

Long time no post! Yesterday was a very disappointing day, the TILT MONSTER came and got me, and my $200 bankroll went from $200 to $2...

Upto that point, things hadn't been going too bad, I was sticking to my strengths (MTT's) and had some decent results on various sites and a few cashouts on pokerstars, which is always nice. I started playing 6 player turbo's again though unfortunately, these have been the bain of my life many times in the past. I was sort of break even in them for a while, then went on a run where I didn't win for a few games, then tried to get my losses back by altering my game which was sort of solid and break even for the most part albeit a fairly small sample, to a more spewy donk type of game, AND THE REST IS HISTORY.

So I am now in the position where I am going to have to deposit again, and go back to playing my solid MTT TAG style poker, which was working but I can't seem to manage to stick to it, from a combination of boredom and lack of a strong mentality. If I can stick to it I can make some money from this game for sure, I am never going to set the world alight with my amazing play and go to the WSOP and win millions, but I would have my place as a steady porofitable poker player. The problem with me is if I don't win for a few days I start panicking and I don't look at the big picture. I work full time, I buy and sell part time, I don't NEED to be winning big money every day on the poker, I should be happy to just grind, enjoy it as a hobby and be happy to be in any sort of profit each month.

We are not quite in August now, but the new month starts NOW, it just seems that it should because of the new start and beginning from rock bottom again. I shall try to update with my progress more often for anyone who still reads this.

THE LAST 8 MONTHS OR SO - Not much has happened, I did have a few months where I hardly played at all and thought that poker may be a thing of the past for me, but you soon get the bug back when you start cashing again when you do eventually get back to playing.

The Elite of European Football

Perpetuum Jazzile

One of my mates introduced me to these, this is a cover of Toto's 'Africa', which I think is terrific! Check out YouTube, they have done some really good stuff... This one is just bonkers:

MTT victory

Only $260 or so but every little helps, first tournament victory for ages. Hopefully I can push on from here.

ooooh I've blown a gasket haha

Disappointed in myself

I feel I am playing well on the cyber felt and getting some nice deep runs but my volume is awful. I just can't seem to motivate myself to play sometimes. For example, last night I had some deep runs in a couple of MTT's and cashed but only small, and last night I thought to myself *tomorrow I will play plenty of MTT's and get that final table*. Tomorrow finally comes and what have I done with myself?

Well, I got up really late totally ignoring about 7 phone calls from people trying to get me to go to work, thinking to myself that I will make more money at the poker tables later on than I will at work! I finally drag my ass out of bed and have a wander round to the parents house hoping to scrounge some lunch and I wasn't disappointed when pater made me an omelette. My big mistake was sitting down after lunch and putting the TV on, because I watched Newcastle vs Aston Villa and Chelsea vs Man Utd scum in the football which wasted my afternoon although it was enjoyable viewing! I then got asked to stay for dinner, I wanted to say no but roast chicken just sounded too appealing. I then sat back on the settee and watched countryfile (some quite attractive presenters in it these days!) and then the darts world cup which England won. I even wanted Phil Taylor to win for a change, the fat condescending prick...

After going round pre lunch time I have only just got back and it is nearly time for bed, and all my poker plans have gone out the window. It is frustrating because I have work tomorrow, and there's another massive football match on skysports which I definately want to watch (come on Spurs!) at night, so it will be Tuesday now before I get the chance to play. I always play best when I have a bit of continuity, time off just leads to me forgetting all the things I was doing well. Sometimes I feel I would rather do anything than play poker, it is not that I don't enjoy the game because I do, I think it is more a fear of failure. I just need to get on with it, to Tuesday! PMA!!